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i moved, subscribe to my new page.

it's under maebautista

thanks, bye.!

man made the money, money never made the man.

i'll live by that quote. i work hard for mines..& tho i'm in quite a dip right now..please believe i'll work my way out of it.you know at times people take life for granted, people don't realize what they got till it's gone..& no i just ain't talkin bout HOMIES that come & go..i'm talkin about REALITY..i know this is all i ever blog about..but this is all i ever really stress about..see what i didn't understand is how people can go through life not having to worry about anything...but then one day it hit me..they don't worry about shit cause THEIR PARENTS do everything for them..well see i've been telling some close friends lately..that..

i'm not blessed with what everyone gots..or most people that is..most families have both parents WORKING..or maybe divorced..& their parents make MADD MONEY..well most people don't know..that i'm the DAD in my family..my dad hasn't worked for years..my mom is a single mother..raising three children..& tho my dad has fucked up in my life..he's still my pops & i love him..& yes till this day i will cater to him as i do to my mother. but don't get me wrong..i do understand that people do have it worse than i do..but this is my life & this is how i take my days..most of my friends dont realize how it is to be poor.? or not to have enough money to even fuckin buy toilet paper.? i don't know the point of my blog..all i know is that..people really need to stop taking things for granted..i'll finish this shit later..

till then..i love my girls <3

tell me why, when i was sitting at my dinner table..eating ..my baby brother is messing with my grandma..so ofcourse she gets pissed..& she starts talking shit as usual..but tell me why she looks at me.. & goes "you're all growing up to be like your dad, WORTHLESS & NOT DOING ANYTHING WITH YOUR LIFE." okay..wth..she kept talkin & talking..so my other brother comes down..& i go "marvin why dont you sit here too so you can realize how worthless you are" ...she keeps telling me..she doesnt want to be here & that she has a home..that treats her better..we dont do anything to her..why does she have to have so much hatred towards us.? so ofcourse you know..WORDS HURT TOO..i know my dads a fuck up..i know he doesn't do shit with his life..BUT HE'S STILL MY DAD..& NO1 NOT EVEN MY MOM CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE..i'm not ashamed of my dad..in any sort of way..who cares if he isn't the worlds richest dad, or worlds greatest dad..but he's my dad..the way he is..is him..& i love him with all my heart..regardless..so ofcourse as shes talking shit..i just grab my shit run upstairs & slam my door..shit hurts..parents make mistakes..but she has no right to judge my dad..cause he gave me & my brothers life..as well as my mom..they both make their mistakes..trials & tribulations..but God forgave them, why can't they.? this worlds full of bullshit.

you got me afraid to let myself go...

is it my heart that i should follow.?

you got me scared of you...